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Pišem o svome životu i najvažnijem što se u njemu događa..
Suze, Smijeh, Zezancija i problemi...
Obožavam muziku tak da i toga ima,osobito rock al
se može svašta nać...:)
Ime mi je Katarina,no svi me znaju kao Becky..Mala (kata,katica,kety,..). Idem u ekonomsku školu u Zagrebu. Imam 15 godina i ne odvajam se od kompa,obožavam izlazit i svoje prijatelje,frendice ,najviše svoju teich(miu).Mrzim laži,ogovaranja,preseravanje,umišljene ljude,licemjerne i takvim slične. Slušam sve,strano,domaće,cajke..prije sam slušala samo rock&metal al prešla na sve. Obožavam jest lazanje i palačinke 
.Obožavam pit pago(jagoda)
. Ne pušim 
,ne pijem 
ok to ponekad I da..to je otprilike neš o meni. Pitajte me kaj hoćete ak vas neš zanima.kiss!
Valentine's Day
My insides all turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away, from sight
And now the darkness over day, that night
And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction, somehow
A black wind took you away, from sight
And now the darkness over day, that night
And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing
So now you're gone, and I was wrong
I never knew what it was like, to be alone
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(I used to be my own protection, but not now)
On a Valentine's Day, on a Valentine's Day
(Cause my mind has lost direction, somehow)
WHAT I'VE DONE
In this farewell,
There is no blood,
There is no alibi,
Cause I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousands lies,
So let mercy come and wash away...
What I've Done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...
Put to rest,
What you thought of me
While, I clean this slate,
With the hands,
Of uncertainty,
So let mercy come,
And wash away...
What I've Done,
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...
For what I've done,
I start again,
And whatever pain may come,
Today this ends,
I'm forgiving what I've done...
I'll face myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done...
What I've Done,
What I've Done,
Forgiving what I've done
LITHIUMLithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.
Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.
MY IMMORTAL
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my, childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it wont leave me alone
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorous]
When you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorous]
When you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorous]
When you'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Forgive Me
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
But I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt that I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to kill those words for you
Each time I say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you."
But somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
So stay with me
You look in my eyes and I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
You're my one true friend
And I never meant to hurt you
FuelGimme Fuel,
Gimme Fire,
Gimme that which I desire,
Ooh!
Turn on...I see red
Adrenaline crash & crash my head
Nitro Junkie, Paint me dead
And I see red
One hundred plus through Black and White
War Horse, Warhead
Fuck 'Em Man, white knuckles tight
Through Black & White
Ohhh, On I Burn,
Fuel is pumping engines,
Burning hard, loose & clean
And I burn,
Churning my direction,
Quench my thirst with Gasoline
So Gimme Fuel,
Gimme Fire,
Gimme that which I desire,
Hey
Turn on beyond the bone
Swallow future, spit out home
Burn your face upon the crome
Yeah!
Take the corner, join the crash,
Headlights, Head-on, Headlines
Another Junkie lives too fast
Yeah lives way too fast, fast, fast, oohh-aye
Ohhh, On I Burn
Fuel is pumping engines
Burning hard, loose & clean
And On I burn
Churning my direction,
Quench my thirst with Gasoline
So Gimme Fuel
Gimme Fire
Gimme that which I desire
Yeah-Heah
White Knuckle Tight!
[solo]
Gimmie Fuel.... On I burn, on and on
Gimmie Fire.... On I burn, on and on
My Desire....
Ohhh, On I Burn
Fuel is pumping engines
Burning hard, loose & clean
And I burn
Churning my direction
Quench my thirst with Gasoline
Gimme Fuel
Gimme Fire
Gimme that which I desire
Ooh
On I Burn!
NEMO
This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart as compass
This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything
My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom gone with my sins
Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name
Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my everything
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forevermore
Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go
[repeat full chorus]
My name forevermore
WALKING IN THE AIRWe're walking in the air
We're floating in the moonlit sky
The people far below are sleeping as we fly
I'm holding very tight
I'm riding in the midnight blue
I'm finding I can fly so high above with you
Far across the world
The villages go by like trees
the rivers and the hills
The forest and the streams
Children gaze open mouth
Taken by surprise
Nobody down below believes their eyes
We're surfing in the air
We're swimming in the frozen sky
We're drifting over icy
mountains floating by
Suddenly swooping low on an ocean deep
Arousing of a mighty monster from its sleep
We're walking in the air
We're floating in the midnight sky
And everyone who sees us greets us as we fly
I'm holding very tight
I'm riding in the midnight blue
I'm finding I can fly so high above with you
LIPS OF AN ANGEL
Honey why are you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why are you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girls in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it so hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why are you calling me so late
Angel Of DeathAuschwitz, the meaning of pain
The why that I want you to die
Slow death, immense decay
Showers that cleanse you of your life
Forced in
Like cattle
You run
Stripped of
Your life's worth
Human mice, for the Angel of Death
Four hundred thousand more to die
Angel of Death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Sadistic, surgeon of demise
Sadist of the noblest blood
Destroying, without mercy
To benefit the Aryan race
Surgery, with no anesthesia
Fell the knife pierce you intensely
Inferior, no use to mankind
Strapped down screaming out to die
Angel of Death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Infamous butcher,
Angel of Death
Pumped with fluid, inside your brain
Pressure in your skull begins pushing through your eyes
Burning flesh, drips away
Test of heat burns your skin, your mind starts to boil
Frigid cold, cracks your limbs
How long can you last
In this frozen water burial?
Sewn together, joining heads
Just a matter of time
'Til you rip yourselves apart
Millions laid out in their
Crowded tombs
Sickening ways to achieve
The holocaust
Seas of blood, bury life
Smell your death as it burns
Deep inside of you
Abacinate, eyes that bleed
Praying for the end of
Your wide awake nightmare
Wings of pain, reach out for you
His face of death staring down,
Your blood running cold
Injecting cells, dying eyes
Feeding on the screams of
The mutants he's creating
Pathetic harmless victims
Left to die
Rancid Angel of Death
Flying free
[LEADS: HANNEMAN, KING, HANNEMAN, KING, HANNEMAN]
Angel of Death
Monarch to the kingdom of the dead
Infamous butcher,
Angel of Death
Angel of Death !!!
Mali vragovi
Sjedim u mračnoj sobi
I plačem…
Suze teku niz moje lice
ne mogu prestati
Sjećanja naviru, sve loše
dođe odjednom u tom trenutku
Sva bol u meni iz dubine duše
probudi se
Ne mogu to više trpjeti
za ten sam u kupaonici
tražim one male vragove
odlučna, skratiti si život
nestati kao da me nije ni bilo
i ovako nitko ne bi primijetio da me nema
No nažalost malih vragova nema
samo mokro lice, razmazana crna šminka
i nepoznata osoba pred ogledalom…
S-vijet v-iče a-ko š-utiš t-i a-nđele
Sjedni.
Ne tu.
Preko puta.
Moram te vidjeti.
Ne, ne prekidaj me.
Šuti.
Pusti me da ti kažem
ono što sam već trebala reći.
Kad trebaš doći, bojim se tvog dolaska.
Zbog nedolaska.
Jer,
ako kasniš samo pet minuta
srce mi je u dlanu
i moja me ljubav ili možda strah
boli.
I zato ne smijem kasniti.
Već sutra može biti kasno.
A nisam ti još rekla
kako i koliko te volim.
Volim te tijelom, pokretima, pogledom, dodirima, riječima.
Volim te smijehom i suzama.
Volim te tugom i brigama.
Ne. Ne gledaj me zastrašeno.
Ljubav, ma kakva bila:
neispunjena, sretna, lakomislena i površna
prava i zauvijek...
Boli.
…ponekad kad te pogledam,
onako slučajno, nehotice,
u trenu mi se vrati misao koja potvrdi pravilo:
"tebe je nemoguće ne voljeti".
volim te zbog onog što jesi,
zbog tvoje iskrenosti i optimizma.
volim te jer si stvaran, realan...
volim te jer si poseban!!!
i znam,
da kad sam s tobom,
tvoj pogled će mi reći sve što osjećaš,
tvoj će mi zagrljaj pokazati koliko je to snažno,
a tvoje "volim te" sve će to potvrditi.
volim te jer si kraj mene, sa mnom i u meni.
još ti samo želi reći:
"hvala ti za sve"!!
Pijanstvo
Voljela sam njega, a ti si bio njegov najbolji prijatelj. To je bilo i ne tako davno. Sa tobom sam se dopisivala nisam te primjećivala kao osobu koja bi mi se mogla sviđati. Vidjela sam samo njega i nažalost njegovu curu. Pisao si mi lijepe poruke, jednom si me pozvao na kavu. Pristala sam. Povela sam i prijateljicu jer mi je bilo neugodno ići samo s tobom. Pa mi se i nikad nismo družili a idemo na kavu. Nisi htio da ide moja prijateljica, htio si biti sam sa mnom ali ja to nisam znala. Kad smo krenuli kući iz kafića, rastali smo se od moje prijateljice i nastavili sami zajedno do stanice. Malo smo pričali, bio si pristojan pa si ostao sa mnom pričekati autobus da ne čekam sama. Kada sam se počela tresti i drhtati shvatila sam da se nešto događa. Gledala sam ti oči, prelijepe plave kao nebo. Tvoje usne meke, crvene kao vino, kao krv. Nisam znala što mi se događa bila sam zbunjena. Došla sam tu večer kući sa neobičnim osmjehom na licu. Primila sam tvoju poruku, pisalo je da ti je bilo lijepo, al da bi bilo bolje da smo bili sami. Kad smo se dopisivali i pričali bilo je iskreno i rekao si mi da voliš jednu djevojku, rekao si mi i koju. Zato te nisam gledala kao dečka nego kao prijatelja. Te večeri u poruci si mi napisao želim li biti s tobom. Nisam bila ni u što sigurna nisam znala pravi odgovor. Rekla sam da hoću. Vidjeli smo se u školi i bio si stvarno super, pozdravio me, nasmijao mi se, javio mi se kad si htio otići do ostalih frendova. Mnogi su bili ljubomorni što smo zajedno, no ja se nisam previše opterećivala s tim. Našli smo se jedan dan na predzadnjoj stanici. Morala sam doma pa smo kratko bili zajedno. Imala sam strašnu tremu, vani je bilo vruće a ja sam se tresla kao da mi treba zimska odjeća. Oboje smo bili nervozni. Kad mi je dolazio autobus primio si me i tada si me prvi put poljubio. Ti si mi bio prvi dečko. U školi su prolazili dani. Došla je nedjelja, vidjeli smo se na misi, ali mislim da smo se jedva i pogledali. Zvao si me na mob no nisam vidjela poziv. Nazvala sam te i pitala dal me trebaš rekao si da mi trebaš nešto reći. Ja sam te slušala. Tvoje su riječi bile :,,ja bih prekinuo, ovo mi je bezveze''.Ja sam rekla da se slažem. Kad su me frendice pitale što se dogodilo rekla sam da smo prekinuli. To je bilo najbolje, mi se nismo ni viđali, nismo rekli jedno drugom što osjećamo, a dobro znamo da se to ne naziva veza. Prošlo je godinu dana, u toku toga vremena upoznala sam dosta novih ljudi. Među njima i dečke. Bilo ih je par koji su mi se sviđali, bilo ih je par za zezanciju. Nedavno imala sam proslavu, pozvala sam tebe, tvog najboljeg frenda i našeg frenda iz moje ulice. Vi ste se napili, otišli ste do stanice i pali ste, znam samo da ste se vratili zamazani. Otišli smo u kupaonicu i pokušala sam ti očistiti majicu al s ne baš mnogo uspjeha. Sjela sam na rub kade, a ti pored mene. Ne znam ni kako ali počeli smo pričati o nama. Rekao si mi da me voliš, ali da ne želiš biti u bezveznoj vezi, ako ti mene voliš a ja tebe ne. Rekla sam da mi se sviđaš. Poljubili smo se....
Prije dva dana u Zagrebu, mom rodnom gradu, jedna djevojka koja je završila srednju školu u devetom mjesecu prošle godine,objesila se. Istražuje se dali ju je netko ubio jer je imala mnogo "neprijatelja" al je prvi zaključak da se sama ubila.Ime joj je Marija, išla je samnom u osnovnu, no dok je ona bila već osmi razred ja sam bila tek negdje četvrti-peti. Nisam ju poznavala ali sam ju znala iz viđenja i puno sam čula o njoj. Moja prijateljica Ana(Ria)sa kojom sam se počela družit u osmom razredu je sa njom bila najbolja prijateljica. Kada je meni Teich(sestrična od Ane-Rie) u nedjelju rekla što se dogodilo nisam mogla vjerovati i činilo mi se kao nešto nestvarno. Ispalo je da sve istina,realno,stvarno i da stvarnije i žalosnije nemože biti.
Danas je Ria(inaće živi u Rijeci od početka šk god.) došla u Zg i javila se Teich. Došla je nama u šk mi smo bile ujutro.
Kada sam ugledala Anu...svu u suzama i kada me jako,jako zagrlila,tek sam tada shvatila što se zapravo događa. Nisam znala što da kažem Ani,nisam se snašla,jako sam se rastužila. Vratila sam se u školu,sjela na mjesto i raplakala se.Otrčala sam u wc, u glavi mi je prošlo puno toga, sjećanja i događaji, Dorijan i Dolores i sve što bi se moglo dogoditi i što se dogodilo.
Znam da se na neki način Dolores pokušala ubit,to možda zvuči grubo ali je tako. I ja sam. Prošlo mi je u glavi što bi napravila da se nešto dogodi Dolores,što bi ?Ali znam odgovor, da se ona ubije i ja bi za njom,to mislim ozbiljnije nego što itko može shvatiti.
Dorijan Sikavica 24.11.2005.g. poginuo je u nesreći dok se vraćao kući sa nastave,to se dogodilo na Strmoj Cesti blizu osnovne škole Medvedgrad,koja je ujedino moja bivša škola. Osobno nisam poznavala malog Dorijana,imao je samo devet godina a ja sam bila šesti razred. Išla sam mu na sprovod...bilo je više nego tužno, svi su plakali,drhtali,nemogu zaboravit lica tih ljudi. Pitanje koje ja postavljam je,što je malo djete poput Dorijana skrivilo ovom svijetu da mora otići prije nego što je išta proživio. Nije imao prvu ljubav, nije dobio prvu jedinicu,nije prvi put izbačen sa nastave,nikada nije bio u disku a svi sada znamo da nikad i neće.
Moja poanta u ovom postu je da napišem ovo: Žalosno je što te ljudi počinju primjećivati tek onda kada umreš,kada te više nema i kad se nemožeš vratit. Tek tada ljudi shvate koliko su te voljeli i koliko te vole i što su izgubili. Isprva nismo ni svjesni što se dogodi,samo nam teku suze i tužni smo jer te osobe više nema, a kad nam ta osoba počne nedostajati i kad ju poželimo jako zagrliti, tek onda shvatimo koga smo izgubili i da te osobe više nema i nikad je neće biti.
